Noise.

Stop the construction
My ears hurt from constant noise
I need some silence.

To you..

To the person who taught me how to smile openly!

To the person who taught me the value of present!

To the person who opened me like the book which goes is never noticed...

To the person who made my life full of colours so vibrant...

To the person who told me how flaws are uniqueness in you...

To the person who taught me to draw the line...

To the person who makes me calm when I lose it...

To the person I say jinx to most often these days (even in thoughts and texts)...

To the person who knows the real me...

To the memories that we created on the canvas of lives most precious moments..

To the one who I can look upto any time and almost all times...

To the one who is like the wind to my sails, if life is synonymous with a sailboat...

To the one who put my troubles aside and treated them with empathy because that one knew what it pain it caused to me...

To the one I can be completely crazy with.

Completely. Period.

To the one, I did say thanks 😊...!

Between Twilights

Between twilights is my soul wandering

It sees only hope of light rays to come the next morning

But in vain and pain and as yet no gain

There is restlessness in my soul because it sees no hope as darkness sets in

Was it my mistake or was it the lost heart at stake

It looks like there is someone out there, but this haze makes me see nothing yet haze

The haze that only disturbs my soul

I feel someone just left my hand someone who was so close

The separation was so painful that I feel extracted of my own soul

“How long has it been? “asked the pain,

It has been years but the longing remains

This twilight is so long that it ends not

Slowly my own shadow is leaving me too

I don’t know what to do, when I think of calling I don’t even remember the name

I felt my soul call the name, slowly, but there was just so much of vacuum around that it rarely heard my soul

If only he knew that restlessness was because of him

Maybe he would have turned back to see how I was dying without him

The stars were out to see my bare pale face

My dried lips and hopeful teary eyes race

My hands hand no power but still they were raised in prayer

I couldn’t stand any longer my knees were tired and sore

All I knew was my God knew that I was in extreme pain

“Heal me O God, Heal me!”

“Please help me stand the pain is too bad”

Tears were flowing, the pain wasn’t relieved

In hope of the next twilight in the morning, my soul breathed away!

...And you smiled because you knew....

I looked at the smile and I knew what they held…
They wanted to say that it is not the same as you felt…

But I do respect every word of what you have just said…

The sanity in the smile said everything…
It assured me that you are not the one for me…

And the best was yet to come it is too quick to foresee…

The words said were safe within you
they will stay as long the stars remain in dew...

You asked me to breathe it out,
.. but I wish that you knew, it was choking me throughout…

If only you were concerned for me
..but the concern was to just feel free..

That the reason for my pain wasn’t you…
and the castle that fell, was not because of you…

You know not I don’t blame
and I know that this castle was lost in rain

For there is only loss and no gain
If someday you feel my pain

You may run back in the memory lane…
But I know that you are not like me any sane..

So just close the chapter and begin writing a new one again!

 

Haphazard Survival

I saw it when it didn’t exist
I read it when it wasn’t written

The brightness blinded me
the noises deafened me

The way I was running for survival was so haphazard
I could barely feel that it was on a shattered glass path

I stood by for a moment and to the crispness I stared
It was just it and its glare

It was a tree on the path and I had to instantly stop
for its colours, fragrance and shade were bliss to a heedless traveller like me

I sat down the shade only to realize, my feet has sores which would heal a day
But only to leave the scars as the pain fades away

I felt the sharp pain, this time in my soul
How did I forget my ulterior goal?

The instant-unpredicted rain got me some peace
that Someone was monitoring me when I was keeping with the world’s pace

The Someone knew what I needed the most
The Someone provided me with everything at the right moments utmost almost

I relaxed under the tree and spoke to my Soul
I felt I could draw a pattern with the events which were over and done

I turned behind to just see, that it was not the shattered glass on the previous road
I was mistaken to take the wrong path for which a traveller like me was not adorned

I thought, there couldn’t have been a better destiny than mine
I had to just correct my assessments with what got me Peace of mind

I had a nap under the beautiful tree,
woke up and felt so free

Began with the journey anew, feeling satisfied and I knew
Few memories that just flew were like dew

There will be many more created like a magic spell en route
but this time just to keep peace in my root (soul)!

I packed my things up and wore my shoes and tying the laces I knew
This is a new beginning which is given to a very few

And I looked up to the path ahead,
and took the path that I chose with all the faith as I rose.

I blush, yet I try to see you!

Is this you whom I see in all my dreams...?                              
I just feel your presence but unaware it is you..!                      

Your face becomes clearer with every dream I see... You come closer everytime I meet you...You make me lower my eyes by the words you whisper to me...
The way our breaths tangle makes me more nervous and as I shy away...You hold me...

I see you everywhere after you leave... Your words echo to me... I wait for the next night to come again to meet you...

I know I never saw you but your touch seems so familiar.. I keep praying it is you and this isn't a dream, surreal!

I love it when you laugh on my talks because it makes me be yours!
I look into your eyes and touch your nose with mine and I run away into the vineyards...

Let Go!

Feelings are natural and inert to the one for whom it develops but it turns bitter the moment the feelings are vocalized!!!
The person they are directed to feels powered and the owner of the feelings feels hesitant to speak, write, call or chat with the person!

Natural phenomena..you can't disagree to that!! ;) ;)
 
It all just gets complicated...and messed and weirrrrrrd! :/ :/ :/
So it is best to let go if it is not making you feel comfortable and you do not want to speak up!
 
I mean let's stay in the shell rather than let people see your emotional side, who don't feel same as you do. So mutual feelings must exist else it is worthless!!!  
                                                         
Let go !!!

My Sister

The night was lonely
I missed my friend

I looked around
But no one was found...

I looked at the photo frame
I saw her smiling face :)

I remembered the li’l hands
when I held them...

The feeling of being elder
To responsibilities to cater

And all the giggles we shared
And the rhymes we hummed together

And the shrilled screams of winning pillow fights
And the secrets of our childhood times!!!

The sharing of cupboards to games of boards
Having same crushes to topping the Classes in Boards!!!

Running and dancing
Throwing away time...

I miss the the days with you, O sister of mine!
For, you are my first Friend and a person so fine!

The conspiracies and plans and dreams that we shared like wine
Some of which have been coloured so bright, we see them shine :)

I thank My God for giving me a gift so beautiful
I pray you be blessed always for you are the angel of mine!

Mood Swings

Swinging left...
Swinging right...

Swinging far right...
then Swinging far left...

O! This mood swing of mine!

Confusing my head like
Riding high on some extremely fast ride!

I am trying to hold myself tight
but to-and-fro gushing thoughts don’t let me stabilize

I then suddenly come to a halt
but the inertia doesn't let me stop at all!

“Yes this is right, but Why is this right?
It ought to be definitely wrong!!

If it is wrong and I know it is wrong then who is right?

Yes, I am right!”

Someone Stop!
Stop!
Stop these thoughts with a big sized full-stop!

Burdening my head, my soul and my goal
These doubts and undue swings of mood!

I don’t require a ride, Thank you!

Try someone weak oh you creepy swings of mood.

You make me mad and sad and act so retarded
Half the people I know then treat me in ways alienated!

The Latin you teach me, O! churlish mood swing
Is something I fail to recall when I am the normal angel with naive wings!

You are so weird, I feel awful after you stabilize
You are like a rhyme which some witches use to mesmerise!

You are black and dark and take my glow
Mood swings! I hate you!

Next time when you try to see me
let me tell you, right in your face

I am not a kid anymore
to ride on your witches’ swings and rides that give me wounds so sore

I know you are sickening, so dare not bother me any time
O you dirty Mood swing..
I hope my words are well defined… :)

Sadaf Khurshid Photography

Meet RJ Khusroo!

Sometimes people just want to speak their hearts out and we don't know where and how to do that.

I'm not a great writer or a story teller but I did say I am a good Orator!
(PAUSE)
Aloha!! Friends…

I think my article on me-self should speak much about me in a modest manner! ;)

We all know blogs are meant for a soul who wants to speak and all souls speak and portray themselves in various forms. Photographers capture the innate beauty of moments in their cameras. Painters in their art forms and colours chosen for depiction!

All forms, concepts, colours, visualizations speak of the artist in their own unique way!
That is what life is about-‘UNIQUENESS’.

All forms of art are beautiful and different; they NEVER match with someone else’s work. Only if your frequency matches with the work of the artist, you are able to appreciate it. Oh yes ‘Frequency’ which determines our friends, partners and soul mates. Hence proved (in mathematics style) that physics concept of resonance is not just limited to light and sound, it matches with souls.

‘Interesting’ as it may sound to the ears and prettier to the eyes that are reading this, right now!


I wish we knew who was the one particular being, in wait for whom we err so many times and still never lose hope that he/she would come. The right moment with the right person at the right time in the right manner, aww..sounds so very Magical and pure!

Didn't that thought make you smile? I'm sure it did!

“We bind ourselves into some circles created by one’s own self and feel disappointed,” someone said to me once, I wasn’t able to understand then but now I know it is true for almost anyone including the Bohemians, the Bedouins, the Gypsies!
All of us make a sect, a border, a thought process in short a circle around them and then they are happy sometimes because of it and sometimes feel caught in it!
Truly people define their life paths and free thinking is totally accepted these days.  But I am not sure how many of you would agree to this that ‘Free thinking’ can be lethal.
It can be as harmful as much as bountiful it has been considered!

Well as the general understanding says, it is up to us to decide if submission to our own desires makes us slaves of one’s self or we rather make those lines straight which don’t let us enter the bizarre destruction! Awaiting us.

So, CONTROL you little brain and tame your self to be subtle.

Oh well!! That is who I am, SADAF KHURSHID. Learning to tame myself and enlighten my soul!
Having a Persian name meaning pearl, chosen by my parents, and depicting me completely! I did speak endlessly if I found someone with whom my ‘Frequency’ matched! Singing, dancing, shouting, planning, teaching, reading, switching and mostly painting are a few tasks that brighten up my eyes and bring satisfaction to my smile. For me, expressing myself is mostly by my talks!
Live life your way as time gone by NEVER comes back is what I believe in. It is my mantra to be Happy. I love people who are natural, SHOW OFFs just ruins my behavior towards them. BEWARE!
And yes never challenge my head as the consequences can be worse than expected.

More to come soon.
Love ya Readers!
RJ Khusroo