If Only!

If asked
I did say yes

If asked
I did move myself towards

If asked
I did let you know

If asked
I did tell you about all those nights I cried

If asked
I did see into your eyes and you will know

If asked
I did tell you how quiet my heart was without you

If asked
I did tell you every wave reminded me of you

If asked
I did tell you about sleepless nights which the moon witnessed

If asked
I did show you every memory of yours which is safe in me

If asked
I did not tell you anything at all

If asked
I did smell your collar and recall

If asked
I did hold your hands and not let you go

If asked
I did tell you why I speak only if asked

If asked
I did tell you how much I missed the familiarity

If asked
I did tell you I have not felt alive in years now

If asked
I did say I did always love you

If only you asked!

Companion who never changed!

My companion who never changed.

I changed countries, cities, walkways, car rides, bed sides
but you always remain unchanged.

I never have to bother to please you to keep company
I never have to ask for your attention to maintain harmony

I just know you listen whenever I speak
and your responses are just so perfectly gentle

I know you love your admirer but you are so uniquely significant, to me,
When I consider sleeping you put me to sleep
and when I'm awake you listen to my thoughts with interest so profound.

This is seemingly a quotidian task to many readers about topics of "you and me"
But only, only, I know what your gentleness means to me.

You don't know but I miss you when you are about to start new 
But then I know you there then too.

If I could compare you to one of my friends who exists far far away but is just like you. 

I changed many places and so did my friend but everything remains unchanged.

So harmonious is the presence and yet so very hidden.

I see the halo sometimes and sometimes the darkness of my friend’s ever existence.

And hence you will be a reminder to me of a friend so existent
who will always be so close yet at distance.