Stars and me!

I looked at the stars and they gazed at me,

We got into a conversation as it could be...

They asked me, why was I awake and my thoughts steady,

when the one I was waiting for was in his dreams already?

I said, I don't know, if it is him,

or just a whim?

If he is a memory to be,

or a future memory to see?

The stars told me that they could see him dream,

with every day the bond is growing deep it seems.

I told them what if they were not sure?

They told me, magic works miracles, so pure!

They told me, the twinkle in your eyes which are so gentle,

No, man can escape that light which is so bright!

I told them, if that was true,

then why doesn't he tell me the answers anew?

They said, find the brightest of us that you can see,

I pointed ten and gave up then.

They said, you could see just what was close in thought

And just because you couldn't see the dim ones, it doesn't mean they exist not

So if someone feels to be close because you have let them shine

Doesn't mean you have found that star which is awake to find you, my wine!

I told them if that is the case,

Then when do I end my prince's chase?

They told me, sleep, my girl,

One morning you will know the answer to the riddle

That morning we won't be there to see your rosy face,

But then when you remember this talk that we have with you, amazed

Because sometimes life unfolds,  

those miracles which are now untold

in the most miraculous manner

that you would be swept across your feet from your manor

and when the dreamer wakes

he knows that you were there in his every breath!

I wish...

I wish I had never known you ever.

I wish that day when I saw you in the lawn, I'd be seeing in some other direction.

I wish I never lost my concentration.

I wish I never gave you so much importance.

I wish I had never known you.   
  
I wish I can now be indifferent to you.

I wish I never knew you existed.

I wish I never heard any of your boring stories.

I wish I was never around you.

I wish I had never known you.

I wish I never wished for you.

I wish I shouldn't have told you I love you.       
I wish you had some guts to speak up.

I wish you could speak the truth.

I wish you knew me.

I wish you felt what I feel.

I wish things could be my wishes' way.

I wish I wish no more.

I wish I wish I wish I never knew you.

I wish if I had only wished in all those wishes for none of these wishes then how wish fully happy I would be.

That moment and this moment!

That night when I was scared in my dream, I went straight to my daddy and mummy and slept right in between them to feel safe and protected. To feel safe and shadowed. To know that I have two people whom I can hold on to. And the contended and peaceful heart slept and had dreams of happiness.     
This was when I was three years old and my memories are very vivid and clearly imprinted in my head.

When I became 13, mummy used to move her hand on my forehead and put me to sleep, say good night and kiss me bye. Remind me of prayers to be said before sleeping and then smiling, she put the lights off.
I was still sure that she will be around. 

Then I left home to go to a new city to start my further studies, I missed the familiarity of the two people most close to me. I tried finding that peace and security but I found neither of the two. The world overtook me and I tried to fake my strengths else the greedy world would have sucked all the goodness of me.     

I met many good friends who till time remain. But the love I was missing was in home so far away.

Home coming day was the happiest of my life. It was June 2011 and daddy was there to take me home. I was so happy and felt like I'm going back home to my first love... my parents. Life will be easy cozy and lovely because I am with them.

Standing on their bedroom door, now, I wonder, the ones who made me everything that I'm now, are so weak.
I wonder if God had not sent me to them how would they be. So weak and fragile are the ones who are my only Support. How would I stay if they are lost some way.  I try my best to help them get their health back. But indirectly I do it for myself because I love them and I feel protected in their presence so divine and pure.

The beautiful pink roses!

The beautiful pink roses!

..saying what the sender felt about you…
Someone said a bouquet is worth a thousand words!

And the one I received today was one of them!
Kept on my desk it was peeping

I saw it when I walked towards it with my heart beating
I knew my eyes were shining when I saw it on my desk,

But I thought who has taken this risk?
Who can think of a boss who shows this valour?

..and then thank her for the genuine thankfulness?
Is unexplainable for it was worth every drop of colour in the flowers so pink pink…

The acknowledgement I learnt from the lady sitting right in front of me!

The roses in pink and emotions totally in sync
will let this memory always remain pink!

I love my mother because...

I love my mother because she is the Epitome of love

I love my mother because she is the Peace of my heart

I love my mother because she is the one for whom my heart pines

I love my mother because she is the Rhyme of my soul

I love my mother because she Controls me without being harsh

I love my mother because she is the Reason I can run miles

I love my mother because she is the Reason for my smile

I love my mother because she knows everything even the ones that I don’t know

I love my mother because she teaches me everything that of which I don’t know

I love my mother because she taught me to be Humble and Kind

I love my mother because there can be No end to her love divine

I love my mother because I love to see her at the door waiting for me with eyes full of love

I love my mother because She is the shade in the heat of this fake world

I love my mother because she does everything for me ALWAYS

I love my mother because she Celebrates little joys of my life with her

I love my mother because she knows me inside out

I love my mother because I know if No one knows she knows

I love my mother because she Forgives me even when I am rude

I love my mother because her cooked food fills my stomach

I love my mother because she is always treats me as a child and makes me feel cared for

I love my mother because she holds my dreams high

I love my mother because she tells me I am lazy and keeps me going on

I love my mother because she is the best person I have ever known

I love my mother because she is patient and she is kind

I love my mother because she is my good friend

I love my mother because she is always with me, by my side

I love my mother because whenever I try singing a song for her I turn all emotional and can never complete a line

I love my mother because she watches all movies of my choice with me just because she wants to be my companion

I love my mother because she always appreciates whatever I do and lets me know what I need to change

I love my mother because she never gives upon her faith on me

I love my mother because in spite of me fighting with her, she still comes to look over me at night if I have slept

I love my mother because I can just be me in front of her

I love my mother because I can turn into a cry baby and find her pampering me

I love my mother because no dream can turn into reality without her magic wand

I love my mother because I love to hear being appreciated by her

I love my mother because the warmth of her hands just takes all the pains away

I love my mother because I just can’t love anyone more than this

I love my mother because I never ever saw anyone more genuine than her

I love my mother for the lesson in humanity that she taught me

I love my mother because she rules my heart, my mind, my soul and she is my EVERYTHING!

 

...And you smiled because you knew....

I looked at the smile and I knew what they held…
They wanted to say that it is not the same as you felt…

But I do respect every word of what you have just said…

The sanity in the smile said everything…
It assured me that you are not the one for me…

And the best was yet to come it is too quick to foresee…

The words said were safe within you
they will stay as long the stars remain in dew...

You asked me to breathe it out,
.. but I wish that you knew, it was choking me throughout…

If only you were concerned for me
..but the concern was to just feel free..

That the reason for my pain wasn’t you…
and the castle that fell, was not because of you…

You know not I don’t blame
and I know that this castle was lost in rain

For there is only loss and no gain
If someday you feel my pain

You may run back in the memory lane…
But I know that you are not like me any sane..

So just close the chapter and begin writing a new one again!

 

The Moonset!